x 9:08:00 PM

I've been w him for almost four years but me not getting on mereka is causing major argument between kami. Honestly, I dislike mereka:-( I've no idea why. What should I do? I felt guilty w my boyfriend since last 2 years ago because of this such things. I've been told him before, but then he asked me not to dislike mereka forever. Yet I still can't stand w mereka(s) and probably mereka can't stand me (I guess) they hung out together, I thought it was healthy and mature of us to have friends that are just ours. Then, since lastyme they had hung out for twice a week and everyday mereka late balik I'm started annoy, hell. Everytyme he mentions about mereka, I feel really uncomfortable and I'm speechless and of course I've no mood tarus. I don't know why. I might be so jealous when mereka hang out together ka? BIG NO! I knew mereka are guy but then hmm entah I've no idea. Most of people say, it's normal for guys, that all guys are this way when they grew up. But it has made me feel thinks negative toward mereka. I tried to ignore it but I ended up bursting out in tears to him and was so angry about all of it, he was had no idea (I think) 'cos I'm being so stupid. I've been try to understand but yet it still makes my tears rolling down on my face.

p/s: I'm sorry for saying the truth here. I can't hold it anymore *tear rolls bit by bit*

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